Primal Mother

Wild and conscious of her mortality, she moves within the boundaries of self-preservation and nurturing. Conceiving secondary to longing for companionship and hoping for sustainability. Seeking to share the burden of managing life. Allowing her neck to be bound she gambles freedom, expecting to gain protection. Being restrained provokes struggle as the untamed spirit craves to sink teeth into the meat of self-expression. Strategically she manipulates her mate in order to meet needs. Unfavorable circumstances result in leaving her companion; searching for one who is more suitable. Maybe it was a bite or perhaps lack of provision, maybe even infidelity that urged her will to depart. Whichever it was, the decision to move on is inevitable. She uses her recourses to get what is wanted. In search of gratification, desire is lost to nurture, numbing the awareness of offspring. Being raised without coddling, offspring must become self-sufficient. For some this is an advantage as maturity is reached ahead of peers. For others resentment burdens aspiration. As her young journey toward adulthood, some fare well while others do not. Some are weak and some are strong.  This is due to varying personalities, genetic inheritance and environmental circumstances. She reared her young within her capabilities, shifting between inward desires and outer responsibilities. Sometimes the young are given more than needed, and sometimes they are deprived. Sometimes offspring come from the longing to rear them and sometimes they are simply a consequence of the primal desire to mate. Initially after birth, young life is at the mercy of the parent, having no choice but to be subject to said parent’s mercy. Was the child wanted or unwanted? Is the child a joy or a burden? Is the parent struggling to survive?  If so supporting another life in unfavorable. Some say eliminating life is unethical because it is against the child’s will. Is being born also against a child’s will? Is the passing of life against ones will? Being raised in favorable conditions increases the probability a child will do well in life. Being raised in unfavorable conditions decreases the integrity of a child’s wellbeing. Abandoning the wellbeing of the young in favor of self-gratification. Perhaps abandoning them temporarily in order to secure better prospects. What filters through the mind of a primal mother? From the outside white light is observed though it is refracted through the prism of her eyes presenting many colors of deeply contemplated thought. She weighs self-preservation, self-desire, and nurturing her responsibilities.